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Monday, May 12, 2014 // back to top?
I wanna curse myself for being back to this blog with piles of rants ready to be talked about.
Even worse than when I was in Australia, I live like a living dead body for the past weeks. It's like I was being set to live just for this same pattern. Going to school, talk about things, being sad for being myself, hating self, trying to raise myself up, trampled and hit my face on the ground again. and tried not to cry.
Why is it so hard to love myself. It'd be great if only I can love myself for a tiny bit, just a tinnnyyyyy littleeeee biiiitttttttt. And gain confidence about living the way I want to live my life like. Lately I can't remember precisely what have I done for the past hours and what am I going to do. It's more like, I don't know what to do too. I tried to be someone a lot better, only to ended being hated by myself even more.
Aaah what to do now... I can't even properly express myself in words. I have to keep trying in making my feeling crystal clear at least to myself because if I can't even understand how I feel, how do I expect anybody to understand how I feel?
....I'll be back once I can figure out how I really feel. At the moment my mind's like an unstoppable glitch. I can read anything.