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into the chrysanthemum tea ♥
あたしには あなただけよ...
Might.
Thursday, May 24, 2012 // back to top?
So... Hey. Before I knew it, I'm about to go to Australia to begin my Horticulture study. I have to be honest that I actually am not really
that fond of it but... we have to go on. Right?
The agent that helped me to work on the VISA and application thingy registered me to have the scholarship program in the school I'll attend. I don't really care about the money thing but I just hope that it could help me to motivate myself. However, as I fill in the application, there's this field where I have to fill in my referee information and I thought it's not going to be important so I just left it blank. Today, the agent called me and asked me about the referee information, which MUST be filled with ONE OF THE TEACHERS in my PREVIOUS HIGHSCHOOL. You had no idea how I left speechless when they asked me to get the information. But then I just confirm the data I have to get before I end up the call.
I haven't mention it here right? About how guilty I am towards my highschool teachers...? They were involved in my past and they were involved during
that tragedy. There's this one teacher who responsible for what I did and I can't really properly face him. It seems like every time I met him, he tried to 'escape' from me. He greeted me, but never see me in the eyes. Not to mention that some teachers were graded C because of the troubles their student has, which I think there must be ME involved in one of the causes. I'm not sure whether if I can get the 'right' teacher to become my referee... It's kinda a shame how I used to be my teacher's fav student but now ended up being utterly a shame.
The 'me' right now, is walking aimlessly towards thick cold mist that I don't even know where it leads. I look up to the sky and see no stars and I look down and see no path. So... I might ended up falling from a cliff or even trapped inside a big cave but...
It must be okay if I still believe I might ended up 'flying' instead of falling, and finding diamonds inside the cave, right...?