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The Next Victim?
Wednesday, March 28, 2012 // back to top?
I don't really understand what was going on, but, as time goes I really hate the community even much more. My family is somehow included as the 'next victim' of the community. Since the price of gasoline went higher, polices tried to captured the people who tried to 'save' these gasoline in huge amount. My family, stocked quite lots of gasoline because we're using it for our shrimp embankment, and polices now tried to prove us 'guilty' because of this.
My dad tried to settled this down before it was posted to the newspaper, but we found out that today it was posted already. I feel this anger when I read it. And it's kind of ironic how I thought the increased gasoline price is sort of... useless. I mean, people are starting to get 'wild' and creating this 'war' between community; attacking places which doesn't have any connection with the 'gasoline'. But then today we, who didn't protested anything about it, got involved??
I mean, don't they see the reason why we're doing this? We've been doing this for years and they were okay with it. Yet, now, because of the price of gasoline increased, we weren't allowed to do that anymore. And moreover, without any warning, some people got arrested already. It was quite a great shock and I have to hide this from my grandparents in order not to make them worried.
What I hate the most is, we found the connection of that police who captured us with his past. He wanted revenge. Before, he was asking for some... help? I'm not sure, but we can't help him; which I believe there is reasons behind this (we do help people; but conditions applied, of course). Then he was trying to find a 'way' to caught us in guilt.
I DON'T UNDERSTAND, okay. I think this is unfair. This is weird and wicked and...
gosh. I was struggling with this thought of wanting to make my family proud of me, but like, right now, what do I have? I can't do a single thing to help them.
The world is getting cruel and... why do I even live in a world like this. I want how the world was years back then.
God, are You still there...?