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Sunday, October 2, 2011 // back to top?
Don't you hate it when you tried to help someone at your best and with your purest earnest, they told you in such an anger tone (and sarcastic smile), "if you don't intended to help then don't!" ?
It happened to me lots of times and i wonder like, why? Is it the matter of the expression on my face? I'm sorry i was born with such kind of face where i always seemed to be pissed off. But i'm the type of person who won't do what i don't like and i will do what i like. So i guess i shall leave it for you to reflect. darn.
sigh. and so. lately there's this 'funny' feeling inside of me that i get envious whenever my dog, Choa, got close with another dog. The reason why is that i kinda scared of the fact that she might forgets about me because she likes it more to be with another dog. Well, you know, i mean, lately my only irl friends is Choa. Whenever i got pissed or sth i ran to Choa and played with her, therefore i can forget those horrible feelings. I don't mind if i have to wake up at night when she needs me or sth. I just need her.
I think my irl friends around me somehow decreased and got further away, meanwhile i'll just stay while scribbling on my scrapbooks and have a little chat with Choa.
Hm. oh well. good news is, i get involved in a SHINee Doujin Fanbook project. 5 artists were chosen to collab together and we're making a magazine with our arts in it. I, of course, am so happy to get involved in this because it's the same as work experience thingy for me. I'll get my profit when those magazines are sold and i really am happy to hear that; well, not abt the part that i get the money, but for the fact that maybe, just maybe, i can make my family at least a bit proud of me.
I gotta do my best!