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Tuesday, July 12, 2011 // back to top?
i edited some parts of my blog pages :D such as the tittle and the greeting box, and in 'about' section. Since i'm kinda bored w kpop stuffs so i'm changing it into Japanese stuffs.
Anw. I'm in an effin bad mood rn. What the fuck is wrong by saying completely what my feelings are? I said those feelings in purpose of making u understand what i feel n consider more abt what should u say and what u shouldn't say. I didn't say my feelings for granted, i said that to warn u: if you continued in saying those annoying things then don't blame me for being angry.
n those people who tweet those things in order for me to read it, if it really is for me then why don't u just fucking tell me out of it? directly onto my face. dammit. Glad that i can bottled this feeling up and pour it inside my blog instead of screaming em out in front of the people. I know i'm going to say bad words n some things i didn't meant to say. That's why i prefer to type it here instead coz even if i will regret some of the things i typed here, i can delete it later on. THAT's the benefit of having your own diary.
I can broke anything around me atm, yet i know how precious things are (n since i believe everything has 'feeling') that's why i tried so hard to calm myself down. In such moment, don't ever say that you understand how i feel. How would u understand the way i feel when our heartbeat doesn't even beat at the same beat? We even have different histories and it might even affect on the way i feel right now. fuck everything.
shiiitttt why should i face such a day? i honestly feel that i'd rather have such dangerous disease, therefore i can value my life. But nah, i'm a lucky gurl who have such a healthy life and i'm blessed with lots of talents. Hello thar, u lucky girl. You have everything but u're now feeling empty. Too bad those values u have isn't enough to fulfill your empty hearts n cure those scars on ur soul.
Too bad. yea, too bad.