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Wednesday, March 16, 2011 // back to top?
I srsly have no idea what to blog about, but i rlly want to blog sth o__o
hm. okay, guess i'm gonna talk about the thought i hv recently, like, every night.
I always ended up coming to think about the doomsday. I don't know when will it be (
well, i believe no one knows except God Himself) but i feel like it's getting closer. Yes, of course, i'm scared only to think of it. But somehow i don't want the world to end soon.
I am so grateful that i was born in 90s coz that way i can feel the changes of era. You know, like the games, electronics, everything we have when we were children and what we have when we're being a teenager, they're all changed. I feel so lucky that i can feel those changes, but deep inside, i feel sort of sad too.
Those changes are kind of...scary? is that the exact word to describe? idk. Honestly i feel being in the 'innocent' era like 90s is fun. The games and shows are somehow more fun and i can feel that within that simplicity life, i feel happy. Sometimes i wish i was born earlier, that i don't have to face the end of the world this fast (
Okay i'm not telling that the end of the world is like, next year or this year, sort of sth like that, it's just IF the end of the world is coming soon for real, then... yea). Oh God, before i die i want to live my life to the fullest ): i haven't got the experience to work yet, being in love, having 'appropriate' boyfriend (HAH!), seeing shooting stars, traveling the world, try to work on a farm like in New Zealand, being one of the famous illustrator/artist in Deviantart n net, etc etc etc. i have lots of dreams, that i often thought myself as an eager person, but i want to experience those things. Is the world's end really coming soon? )''':
Recently i have lots of doomsday dream, and it scares me, really. i dreamed there's a big flood in Singapore, just like what we heard from Noah's story. n suddenly everyone around me were gone, i was left, like, almost alone. then someone gave me a chance to go back in time. oh you have no idea how glad i was to see all of those missing people! The feeling when you open all the rooms and found out that everyone's not there, gone without a trace. wow, it gives me goosebumps only to think of it.
and i had a dream of doomsday too, when i saw the sky gets so dark and there were like... 7 angels? coming from the sky? and someone said to me it was about the time to have a 'war' and i was so scared. the wind blew so hard and i was somewhere in a building. i saw an angel from the building, so close to me, and it has... lots of wings. i forgot the exact amount tho. And lastly i saw God. idk why but i asked 'God, are you alright?' and He smiled at me and join those angels. then someone told me to go down from the building. The building is somehow broken alr, which is why i can feel the strong wind too.
Ah, i can't remember the other thing about doomsday dream but i had those 2. i have no idea whether it's bcoz i think too much or... okay guess it yourself.
But i somehow feels so grateful that i moved to Singapore, or less i'll keep escaping from God ):
i'll try slowly to bring all of my family members to God too (esp my bro n dad) i wanna see my whole family in heaven when the time comes (either doomsday or 'death' but no, i don't want us to die soon ==;; u know what i mean lah, i got confused myself)
i guess that's it. i feel like i bubbled too many things here LOL! i should go n work on my homeworks rn.