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Sunday, March 20, 2011 // back to top?
I'm back from the Youth Camp! It was super fun (:
I've been blessed for the whole 3 days, can't believe that it's going to be so much fun! ^^ well, it's too fun that it makes me feel kinda weird when i got back to Singapore.
Today i went to the church but somehow there's something i can't explain with my feeling; i feel there's something different and i feel kinda weird.
I mean, we've been close during the camp and i thought that we're going to be closer for more starting from today onwards, but i kinda feel something like, a gap? Not sure what is it tho.
I found it more comfortable to be a bit quiet? I was thinking like, should i take few steps behind again? Or should i behave like how i actually is?
However, to be honest i feel so happy when someone in my church came to me when the sermon was done. He greeted me and asked 'So, you're actually loves to talk?' and i was like, laughing and nodded. He laughed too and said that it's great that i loves to talk. But to be honest - too - i feel like i can't fit into the jokes. I can laughed whenever people in the church said something, but i can't bring up the atmosphere whenever it's my turn to talk. Oh God, i beg You please to burn me up once more ): i don't want to feel miserable. it's scary for me. i miss the happy feeling and spirit i hv during the camp. it was fantastic.
I hope i can gain the spirit back to life. I don't want the things i've got from the camp comes out as only a waste LOL!
oh and another thing, idk y lately i keep thinking abt boyfriend? LOL! i shouldn't be too eager about it but i can't help to think about it. I know God has the BEST plan for my love life, i have to be patient more that how i used to be. Well to be honest i ALMOST have a new crush but... nah. after a few days i realized that i got the wrong signal. phew. glad that i didn't go too far yet. So, yeaph, i have no crush. I actually miss the feeling of to be in love. i wish i'm in love hahas. But somehow i sort of having, a pessimist side; i feel like there's no one is going to love me ==;;
i feel like even if i love someone, he's not gonna love me back. sigh. i shouldn't be pessimist. i gotta believe more and more and MORE to God :D
idrk why am i talking like this LOL~ but. so. yea.