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Xindi. ( Art is my life ) twenty twelve nineteen ninety three.
I believe in fairy tales and dreams. I believe they're meant to be true in my life..

Things that escaped.
Monday, February 7, 2011 // back to top?

Recently i feel like i'm missing lots of things. Somehow feeling complicated. it's like i was in a long sweet dream and suddenly figured out that i'm right here rn, starting a new life that i think... so far isn't going that well LOL! why do i feel so empty.

I miss:

• Waking up in the morning, taking a bath, changing into uniform and with high spirit going to school to see my crush and friends.
• Rushing the math exercise in class so that it won't be one of the homework need to be done.
• LOL-ing with my lil' bro coz of our silly jokes and nonsense imagination.
• Hanging out, watching movies with friends on Saturday night.
• Laughing until i burst my tears out, laughing until my voice doesn't come out.
• Having debate with one of the clever students in class about the correct answer of math problem.
• Planting sunflowers in my garden.
• Playing cards w my aunties, uncles and brother. 'Painting' wet powder for the losers.
• Those days when i first know about Kpop.
• Singing out loud in my room without anybody else complaining.
• Playing traditional games w my family @ Bali.
• The times when i was so carefree about... anything?
• Harvest Moon: Back to Nature
• Rhapsody : A Musical Adventure
• Watching the clear stars at night
• That evening when my brother n I saw a falling star.
• Playing basketball in Timezone until it almost broke my arms lol. (40 games or more)
• Dance dance revolution, with my auntie lol!

• school. those precious days.

i can keep going on. i was like, wth with this melancholy feeling. lol! sort of ridiculous for me, but anw, i know i can't get back to who i used to be and i can't even buy those precious times.
well of course i can't buy those precious moment coz it's mine alr hahas.

okay. no. that's not what i meant.
i want to look back onto those days, i wanna know what kind of person was I. What did i do so that i was THAT happy.

most people wanna hv time machine and live in that period of time again but that's not the reason why i wanna have time machine. the reason why i wanna hv time machine is only to help me remembering some precious moments that might've forgotten. ah, time is one of the scariest things. slowly escaping without letting us know, feels like i'm getting far and far away from those days.

okay i'm talking crap. i shld stop, like, rn.

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